Somehow.....Someway......Someday

I've said it before....and I'm going to go ahead and say it again. Life just hasn't really gone much like I expected it to. At this point, it really doesn't look much like I thought it would either. Especially this whole moving to Chicago bit. It has been a doozie. So much of it I have loved....but I won't deny....it's had some rough moments for sure. I've been feeling it, but doing my very best to keep pushing forward. That's all you really can do. It reminds me of this time I was driving home from Utah to Washington. I was in my little beetle and I had already kind of hit some rough patches along the way....like running out of gas two miles outside of Boise in the middle of a hot summer day...you know little things. Maybe I took a wrong exit once....it's possible. It was my first time making the drive home alone and in my (then new to me) car. Don't judge me. At any rate, I was about two hours from home when out of nowhere a thick darkness loomed ahead. It was a storm of some sort...much like "The Nothing" in Never Ending Story. It was terrifying. I could barely see behind me and could barely see in front of me. With visibility like that I didn't feel safe pulling over, I was afraid I would get hit if I did. There was nothing else I could do, but just keep going, just following the headlights of the car in front of me the best I could. It felt like an eternity passed because I was so anxious, so worn down, but I made it through and it was back to a clear Summer day. I finally made it home. Life has definitely felt like hitting that storm all over again. Between job hunting, finances, matters of the heart, family and the other bits and pieces, I just haven't felt like I've had clear vision. I feel like I've been walking forward into the darkness. At times, I've really just felt like proverbially pulling over and trying to wait out the storm.....but life doesn't work that way. My personal motto has been this: Somehow....someway.....someday..... Things will work out. Maybe not like you plan....waiting doesn't always get you you're ideal...but: somehow, someway, someday, things work out. This morning I felt like I hit one of those "pull over!" moments....it was a rough morning. Then I got a call and an offer for a PR internship. Yes, please. Agreed, an internship is not my ideal. I would really, really, really love to have a full time gig. However, some opportunities just feel like the right chance to take. This is one of those. It started by accident. I was trolling for jobs...the usual, when I saw a posting with a firm I would really like to work for. But when I went to their website, the job wasn't listed. Strange. So I tweeted said firm and asked who I could send my resume to. They tweeted me back an email adderss. The email recipient told me that they were not hiring immediately but remembered me from my first internship here in Chicago and wanted to hear about how my career was going. So we talked and she said maybe come January if I was interested, they would be hiring again. I told her to keep me on her radar and kind of put it in on the back-burner in my mind. Then I got a call from the HR contact again last week telling me that an emergency had led to an immediate need for an intern hire. Less than a week later I went in yesterday for the interview and they offered me the internship today. So I said yes. So the story goes. Is my life complete now? Nope, still need and want some things. However, do I feel like somebody turned up the lights? Yes. I feel grateful, and I'm optimistic it will be a good fit, and I'm excited. As for the rest: somehow....someway.....someday. Speeding Cars by Imogen Heap is the song of the post. Enjoy. (yes it's hyperlinked)