One Year Older and Wiser...supposedly

So, it happened. I was kind of in denial that it would...but I got older. I was talking to a friend about this getting older business and he said something so spot on. It was something to this effect, "I feel like how I looked at the future and where I would be and what I would be doing and how I would feel at this point is like what the Jetsons let me think the future would be like. We thought by now there would be flying cars and other crazy space traveling stuff going on, but there's not. I totally thought I would feel like a grown up or have certain things in my life, but I don't and that's okay, we don't need flying cars." That's your shout out Frank!
This is true for me. Part of why I was sort of in denial about my birthday was because I was starting to feel like I wasn't keeping up with my age...and that I don't want to. I don't feel 28. I feel like I should still be an undergraduate, that the world is my oyster and that I can still live my dream of dropping everything and hopping on a plane to go backpack Europe.
It feels like there is a certain stage of my life that is coming to a close...and that's hard. Change is hard, not necessarily because better things aren't in store...but because we don't know what's in store. What we've had is all we know.
I feel like I've learned a lot about myself since my birthday...which is crazy...but true. I've really found myself taking a step back and looking at what I've held onto that I shouldn't. It's funny how we don't realize how holding on to certain things really just holds us back....but it's true in some cases. It's hard to change....I feel like I definitely have had growing pains when my birthday has come around for the last few years...but it's okay. Like a fine wine (cause I know how that goes....) or fine cheese (I don't really know anything about that either....)I just keep getting better with age. ;) Or at least, that's what I tell myself anyway.
It was a fun week, people let me feel special and let me know they were glad I was born. I had dinner with a few friends, some of my crew threw me a surprise bday dance party. (They know me well-I love to dance.) This weekend, I did have a birthday adventure and went north...but I think that story deserves a post all it's own.
So here's to a new year. It might as well be a good one. In fact....might as well go all in! Best year ever-coming up!
This song is dedicated to me...cause it was my birthday, okay? What?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvLTsJdX0V4